It comes in Waves

Wow, how it just hits you some times. There are days that I am doing great, no tears and then there are days where they just won't stop. Today has been one of those days. I would just look at someone who knows me well, and the tears start to flow without ceasing. I don't know if it is the holidays, or what. But today I have been missing Micah more than I can explain. Seeing all the babies getting ready to celebrate their first Christmas and knowing that there is a heaviness in my heart because Micah's first Christmas is not with us makes me sad. However, I know that he is having a better Christmas at the feet of Jesus, which is where I can't wait to celebrate Christmas.

Not all bad. I must say that Zane is so sweet. After daddy put him to "bed" I had to go in and tuck him in. I start to count to 30, how long I will rub his back (he is a back rub HOG!!!). He has started to repeat the numbers after me. Well, sometimes he is a little over anxious and says the number (correct number) before I get it out! (Tried to do the alphabet, no go) When I told daddy, he said he has tried and Zane says "NO! Mommy do it!" Melts my heart. Something that is just us!