Sunday, December 7, 2008

It comes in Waves

Wow, how it just hits you some times. There are days that I am doing great, no tears and then there are days where they just won't stop. Today has been one of those days. I would just look at someone who knows me well, and the tears start to flow without ceasing. I don't know if it is the holidays, or what. But today I have been missing Micah more than I can explain. Seeing all the babies getting ready to celebrate their first Christmas and knowing that there is a heaviness in my heart because Micah's first Christmas is not with us makes me sad. However, I know that he is having a better Christmas at the feet of Jesus, which is where I can't wait to celebrate Christmas.

Not all bad. I must say that Zane is so sweet. After daddy put him to "bed" I had to go in and tuck him in. I start to count to 30, how long I will rub his back (he is a back rub HOG!!!). He has started to repeat the numbers after me. Well, sometimes he is a little over anxious and says the number (correct number) before I get it out! (Tried to do the alphabet, no go) When I told daddy, he said he has tried and Zane says "NO! Mommy do it!" Melts my heart. Something that is just us!


boltefamily said...

Praying for your sweet heart!

Anonymous said...

I'll keep you in my prayers...